why do I exist

又到考试的星期啦 ！
压力，什么都来！
也不懂为什么我没什么认真的去读，
也没什么担心，
却还是感到压力！
青春豆和黑眼圈成为我的好朋友！


Well, there is few of my friend say I don't look stress at all ...
But my question is, do I need to show my stress out since nothing can be done?
Not to be offensive though ...
Im not that kind that I will show my emo or stress =)
I mean ya la no point right even if I how there is nothing you can do to help me also ...


I feel so suffocated the whole week,
the stress is killing me !
When Im stress, I will emo and start to think a lot !


Again will listen to emo songs and memories non stop replaying ~
When only I will stop thinking about you since you are happily over there ?
I know Im stupid but you know is always suddenly this feeling comes and you just cannot stop thinking about it !


This month many people ask me about my love life ...
I don't know why but maybe is because I got more good guy friends ...
Is Mr F who help me go through this week !
But I feel bad because I don't want to depend on him every time !
So do Samantha, I don't want to be over rely on her ...




Sometimes I just wonder
what is my aim living on this earth now ?
Family NO
University life NO
Academic NO


the only thing is few of my best friend that makes me feel like Im worth living ...