离不开你，也留不住你 II

距离我们分开也差不多一个月了，我们是在27.4.2007开始的，也在 4.8.2011画下句点的。这整个月来，我知道你过得很好。我真的每次跟自己说不要在去偷看你或她的面子书，我真的做不到！这一秒跟朋友说我不会去看，下一秒我又情不自禁的去看，我真的不是我想像的那么坚强，我依然放不下。我知道我应该彻底的放下，我真得很用心常试去做，可是失败了！真的！！！我真得很像放下这段感情，很想很想！可是偏偏我做不到！


身边的每一个事物都好像与你有关，每一首情歌，每一个剧情片断，每一段对话，每一样东西，每一样琐碎的事情，我都会联想起你！我知道这些都是我自找的，不去偷看，就不会知道那么多，知道你们有多好，知道你带她和你家人吃饭见面，知道你和她去喝酒跟朋友玩，知道你的亲戚都很喜欢她，这一切我都知道！我真的活得很辛苦，你知道吗？


朋友们，我知道你们很关心我。我也很感激，可是我真的做不到，不是我不要！有些人看我每天还嬉皮笑脸的，说不觉得我会伤心到哪里去。我跟你说，难道你要我在你们面前哭？还是在你们面前喊自杀啊？嬉皮笑脸已经是我的习惯，我不会显露出我的不开心或什么，真么都好，我还是会笑着和你们聊天吹水的。我故意隐藏，不是有什么目的，而是既然跟你们出来喝茶谈天，何必摆出一幅失恋的样子扫兴啊？我每天都在阅读和听对自己激励的书或歌，可是帮助不大。所以请你们体谅下我，好吗？4年的感情对我来说，不容易放下。给那些觉得我自找，我活该得到这种下场的人，开心就好，不用帮我宣传或给与评论，谢谢。


曾经的你，
说你不喜欢头发染金黄色的女生
说你不喜欢化妆的女生
说你不喜欢喝酒，晚上去夜店的女生


现在的你，
现在你的女朋友竟然是 ，
头发染金黄色的女生
化妆很浓的女生
喜欢喝酒，常常去夜店泡的女生


我爱你，爱了整整一个曾经！嘴在逞强，泪在投降。习惯一个人听着那忧伤的旋律，习惯一个人默默地看着那伤感的文字。夜那么静，静的让人有点想哭。生活那么苍白，苍白得让人有点无力。现实那么残酷，残酷得有点让人悲伤。感觉那么清晰，清晰得让人有点虚伪。所谓什么时间会让一切冲淡？其实是时间不是让人忘了痛,而是让人习惯了痛。再次告诉自己不能哭，然……眼泪却再一次不争气的流了下来，也只有在你面前，我所有的高傲，所有的伪装，所有的姿态，已荡然无存。始终无法去相信，那些刻骨铭心旳回忆，那些纠缠不休的过往，那些抹擦不掉的美丽，你早已忘记，怎么能够说忘就忘了…


我们都是白羊座，也令很多人好奇白羊怎羊和白羊谈恋爱？
现在的我发现到 ~
【你的星座最排斥哪种爱情】白羊座:异地恋
【12星座经常为什么而愁眉苦脸？】白羊座（单身）


有一天你拨打我的手机，语音告诉你我的号码成了空号，你会不会失落，会不会想我？如果有一天你的手机里，再没有我的信息，我的电话，你会不会很难过？我们从此再也见不到了，你不会发现其实你是爱我的？如果，如果我们能回到以前的我们。当初不该与你那么近，以至于我到现在都没办法适应与你突然的距离。

Without you - G.Na

1teens (19th ) in Fun Fair

Unbelivable I'm still in a down mood !

And now I have to quit alcohol due to my health ...

Its really suffering tho ! =(

Day and night I live in my memories ~

I have no intention to start any relationship and feel like remaining single ~

So last Thursday I am out to yam cha with my dudes, Samantha, Jordan and Goh .

Afternoon all of us went to Samantha's work place and chit chat till 5pm and Jordan fetch me back to have dinner with family ...

Goh follow Samantha work and me and Jordan are suppose to meet them at 8pm =D

It feel awesomee when Jordan fetch me because he likes korean song too !

After meeting up we decided to go to Tarot Cafe to yam cha ~

Then we end up so boring coz there is no nice movie to watch and tadaa !

We end up heading towards fun fair !!!

Oh geee I was so eggcited !

We went for Merry Go Round 1st and 2people are allowed in 1 coach !
So I end up with Jordan and he was so scare of it !!
haha damn funny right when I slightly move and he ask me dun shake xD

Then we went to play some spinning cars that go up and down !
Then we went in to haunted house !
Suck till max ! all fake ghost =(
Followed by the swing that makes me dizzy -.-
The boys play some arcade before we go back !

_______________________________________________________________________

I already miss you- G.NA

why am i crying more than what i should?
How can I let you go just like this?
I let you go with no pain
with a smile on my face.

I am not like any another girls you see
I am not pretty or cute, I'm just me
To meet with friends, i don't have time
Because you are always on my mind.

You don't have to hear me nagging about you anymore
Even though you're not right next to me
Take care of yourself for me.

What should i do? I cant help but missing you.
I miss being in your arms, Just us two
I still love you no matter what
Why did we ever wanted to breake up?

Maybe you feel the same way as i do
Maybe you're crying in your heart?
I hope you feel it too, just like i do
give me a chance
and come back to me again.

You're pretending like nothing's going on
I understand why you're like this
In a way, It's good for you
You won't miss me anymore.

You said i am always number one on your speed dial
But as time goes by, it will be erased
It may even be replaced.

What should i do? I cant help but missing you.
I miss being in your arms, Just us two
I still love you no matter what
Why did we ever wanted to breake up?

Maybe you feel the same way as i do
Maybe you're crying in your heart?
I hope you feel it too just like i do
give me a chance
and come back to me again.

Remember when we spent the night (together)
You promised to be by my side, (that promise)
I tried to forget them
but it's not working well.

Right now i just want to be by your side
Please accept me back into your life.
But you're even starting to forget my name
so why can't i just do the same?
No, I don't want to believe that you're not mine.
If i can, I want to go back in time.
Please come back to me, come back to me
don't break my heart, and come back to me again

Please just come back to me again.

Get yo Drinks Up !

Due to my blog and my tweets , 

Guess all of you should know what happen to me ...

Yeap thx alot to the friends that take the initiative to comfort me and cheer me up ,

and also I learn alot from this lesson !

First time I cried in front my cousin brother =/

which he ring me up at the correct time while I am crying my heart amd lungs out !

Ok la but atleast this time he never tease me at all but explaining all crap to comfort me =)

Then also my Kairyuzai jie ... 

First time she worry me like hell ! 

She is so caring and give alot of support to me and also teach me how to face some special consequences ~

I love her lots !

Thx for taking the iniative for helping me settle my line problem =)

Furthermore , my beloved dad, Ah Goh and Samantha also make their time to hang out with me more xD

Im a happ gal ! =D

Serious shit , Im still in depression mood !

I'm addicted to alcohol although my alcohol tolerance is low =X

Last Thursday is the most drunk- est day in my life !

1 bucket followed by 1 bucket and followed continuosly !

Damn haha ! was with Jordan, Goh and Samantha in Brugge ,

And best part is Jordan is pissed drunk,

Im abit drunk but stil concious ,

Goh and Samantha started to feel tipsy xD

So in the end, Goh have to drive Jordan home with Jordan's car , and Samantha fetch me home with Goh's Triton xD

Then, Goh fetch Samantha back to Brugge to get her car and go back home again =D

Dude , I can't walk straightly that night ! Woots and everyone is so happy !

I know is not good for my health and bla bla bla ,

but I'm still raining everyday and emotionally unstable ~

Alcohol cheers me up for this moment ^^

We are Drunktards !!!!

 Same areas Drunktards !!!

林俊傑 - 記得

谁还记得　是谁先说　
永远的爱我
以前的一句话　
是我们以后的伤口
  过了太久　没人记得　
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　
说要一起　走到最后

我们都忘了　
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的　
有一天　有一天都会停的
让时间说真话　
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后　
我们都不知道会不会有以后

我们都累了　
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　怎么说　
怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么　
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人　
等著对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得　
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中　
看见了不同的天空
走得太远　
终于走到分岔路的路口
 是不是你和我
要有两个　相反的梦

离不开你，也留不住你

至亲爱的老公，

    这次会是我写给你的最后一封信。

8月4日- 你4年以来第一次跟我提出分手，我也第一次哭了整晚 。。。
8月5日- 你说你是一时冲动，说分手是为了你会便更好的男朋友，叫我别担心，你会回到我身边的。。
8月6日- 8月11日- 你都不回复我的信息和电话
8月12日- 你说你忍够我的脾气，我的一切，也说没有我的泥，生活得特别开心 。原本今天我打算和你好回的， 可是。。。。
8月16日- 你竟然在面子书删除我，并和另一个和我同年的女生在一起，说真的她很丑，又胖，又LALA....论学历样貌，我都胜过她，或许脾气，我真的输了。

 ~ 8月11日- 是我拿成绩的重要一天，你没交待一声说你不来，可是我知道你早已请假。可是，
    连一声问候也没有，我虽然考到了，可是我一点都不开心。
~ 结果也在8月17日，我终于看到你的新女朋友的面子书，我也看到你们亲密的对话。更让我
  心痛的事，你们是在8月11日开始。
** 8月4日你抛弃我，8月11日就和她在一起了，还是我拿成绩的那一天，那天的我一个人也蛮害怕
  的！

 这段日子里，我每晚都以泪洗脸，甚至早上下午，一有时间就会回想起我们4年来走过的风风雨雨，我很怀恋，一听到伤感的歌，也会掉泪。。。我每天看着我们的照片，看着你送我的链。还记得我们2周年纪念日你送我的戒子吗？我从来没脱下来，24小时戴着它。可是现在的我，终于把它脱下来了。我知道戒子不再属于我，也没意义了。

原本不管发生什么事，我都舍不得把你送我的东西给他丢掉，我也犹豫了很多天。可是看到你们都已公开恋情，我也应该来个了断吧。。。我的心真的很痛，可以说快要死掉！

老公，你知道我私底下，很在乎你的吗？嘴巴说一套，可是心里又另外一套。当你不回我信息时，我真得很怕你出车祸！当我不开心时，你一定哄我！当我和家人或是朋友闹翻，你也会陪伴我度过，我生病时，是你给了我力量坚强的走下去。当我伤心，我第一个想告诉你；当我开心时，我第一个想和你分享，尤其是我的成绩。

 4年的感情真的那么脆弱吗？4年感情拿来和一个不到几个月的感情比，原来4年对你来说也不算什么对吧？说真的，我知道你对我的耐性已经很好了。现在的我，没有你，真得很不习惯，空虚很多，好像被孤独包围。真的好辛苦，好辛苦。。。

 现在的你应该很快乐吧！想必她很讨你喜欢，你才会为了她，放弃我，放弃我们4年的感情吧。我现在也不想去知道你们的事情了，知道越多，伤得越重！希望她会好好的照顾你，知道你对海鲜敏感，心脏会偶尔作痛。每晚睡觉前，习惯和你通电话，起来时，习惯看到你的信息。每天都会为问我吃饱了吗？去哪里来啊？跟谁啊？现在？你关心的人已不是我了。。。曾经对我许下的种种诚若，你都已经忘记了。因为你，我相信什么是永远，也因为你我现在完全不相信了。我们时常讨论一起的未来，也现在无法实现了。

难道4年感情说断就断吗？我从来没想过你会那么绝情。不理会我就算了，还删除我，还立刻和另一个女生交往！我承认我也不是那么忠，可是我没你做到那么绝，因为我知道你才是重要的。 我也是人，也是女生，也会脆弱，也会崩溃。我离不开你，也留不住你，真得很辛苦！
每次想到你身边有另外个女生，我恨不得把你杀掉！以前的我，每当听到萧亚萱的最熟悉的陌生人时，我都不相信世界上那又酱的事情，现在我体会到了。现在的你，我一点都不了解，不认识，很陌生！

很遗憾的，我来不及见你最后一次，吻你多一次，拥抱你多一次。我也很想对你说最后一次的老公，我爱你！现在没有机会了，我要学会独立了，没有人给我依赖了，没有人照顾我了。你的一句，没有我的存在，你很快乐。我一定会做到！

再见了老公，好好的照顾自己，我真的放弃了，我不会在插手了。
可是，我真的有一句话很想问你~ 你还爱我吗？

我會消失，你要好好过- G.NA

給我說清楚
看著我說個清楚
看著我的眼睛說
是不是說了
我們分手吧
你是不是想和我結束了
我知道 你心裡已有其他人了
我知道 我已對我感到厭煩了
想忍住眼淚 卻禁不住地流了下來

我會消失 你要好好過
我只說得出這一句話
忘記一切 你要好好過
沒有了我你也要幸福
你拋棄了的愛情
你就自己帶走吧
一絲情感也不留下地全部帶走
對不起的話你也就都不必說了
不用擔心我

我知道 你會把我的一切抹去
我知道 我將會非常地增恨你
就算知道了這一切

You, 曾是我活著的理由
You, 曾是我想要的一切
You, 曾癡癡地望著你的人是我,不是嗎?
Why? 為什麼還要離開我?
Why? 為什麼還要拋下我?
乾脆就這樣
那為什麼最初你還要愛上我?!

會不會有天你想起那一天
我們第一次相遇的那一天
我到現在都還是會想起來
過去你曾經承諾過的約定
只疼惜我一個人
只守護我一個人
只愛著我一個人
我都相信了 相信了你的謊言
我都相信了阿!
你真的曾經愛過我嗎
忘記一切 你要好好過 

Bonding with Dino @ Pavilion

Fuyooh guys !

I'm back ! Serious shit I'm back =D

Not the good girl that always stay at home , but a hyper active slut xD

So last Friday , damn long I never go Pavilion ~

Yeah I met up with dino @ Joann there !

I took a cab from P.Seni to Pavilion cost me RM20 =/

but is ok Im too lazy to walk to monorail !

So while waiting for Dino ...

Then we went to Tokyo Street

Tokyo Street is boring and is not what I expected !
We had our tea break in Tokyo Don ~

Tee Hee =D
Then we went to shop as usual !
Cotton On, Forever 21 <3
Both of us bought 1 top in MNG !

After that we headed to Snowflakes ♥

We watched Hangover II after that !!
It was so funny xD
Me give 4 stars ! ****

Then we went to Baskin Robbin to continue our chit-chatting o(n.n)o

I ♥ this pic most , our signature of madness !

Then we ciao home with love ^^

Quite enjoy the days with dino !
and I've been going out every night tat week xD
Who cares xD

♥ Part I in Melaka - Crocodile Farm ♥

Muahahaha !

Something to show off xD

Hehe nothing special actually !!

Is just another trip to Melaka last Saturday =)

Our first destination is Taman Buaya ( Crocodile Farm )

Its located in Ayer Keroh, Melaka !

Entrance fee is like RM 10 , 

but he had breakfast at McD beside the farm before going in !

Hmm paid RM10 just to see crocodiles sleeping !

But few of it opened their eye and o.O 

they look cruel and evil !

 Do you feel awkward why there is a hen among crocodiles's pic?

I took this pic is because it is put in the crocodile's pool to let crocodile eat !

Sigh =/ so pity and cruel !

this is baby crocs !

This are some weird fierce turtle or tortoise xD

After looking at all these cruel monster , we went for the exhibition !

It exhibits all famous tourism place in Malaysia =)

But seriousl it sucks LOL ...

After visiting these buildings, we decided to visit the

~ JURASSIC PARK ~

Its kinda lame this park where only this dinosaur appear and is half spoiled !
Furthermore we went through few tunnels and is kinda dark but is not dinosaur who popped out ,
but is mummies, vampire and monsters !
I thought there is just dinosaurs so I decide to sit alone but end up getting phychiatric illness o.O

My o.O merajuk face !

Then we visited reptile farm, I never take picture there because I personally dislike or phobia snakes =/
Small snakes , big snakes, whatever colour for me also disgusting !

Then it started to rain, so we quickly left to the car =)

♥ End of Part I in Melaka ♥

will update part II soon ....
Tataz !